I am Myself

I had forgotten something important.
I am not a coward.
I am only myself, no one else.
No need to look so closely at things just to make them unbearable.
I am the Captain of my Soul.
I control my fate; not my environment, not my parents, not my peers, not the places I'm in, not the government. 
Just because there are six billion other people out there, does not mean I am worthless, does not mean I can't make a difference, does not mean I am not myself.
I am myself, and no one else.
I am not a coward.
I am not afraid.
I am not weak.
I am not in doubt.
I am myself, and no one else.

And I am getting back on my feet.
Now.

Invictus

Invictus
by William Ernest Henley

"Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find, me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll.
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul."