busy forgetting pain

"Being busy helps you forget your pain." Is that really true? Somehow I want to rebel against that. I don't think it's really true at all. You can be busy and still be in pain. But actually doing something is always better than sitting around and shriveling up in your distorted mind. I've been busy this week. Not really feeling pain, or much at all. I just feel halfway like a machine on a schedule, and halfway like a sudden realization that I'm human. Is this my gray area?

Mononoke/ red riding hood?

yeah, that red hood

Na, I just thought of something funny. In Princess Mononoke, Ashitaka is always wearing that red hood of his. San is a wolf. Stick them into little red riding hood.

Ink

In the end, the ink I thought so black and marking washed away in a little bit of water.

stuffed totoro

Ah, my totoro plush was chewed up by the stupid dog. As I expected....
Gah. I'm so freakin' tired.

Can anything last forever?

Oh, I see now. It was because I have no confidence that anything can last forever. That anything is truly infinite. I can't trust those words, and that is why I'm left this way.

Ki Ni Naru Aitsu

I feel like I've been neglecting this blog....sorry about that. Anyways, I cleaned too much today. I'm worried my hands will fall apart. I really like Cardcaptor sakura. Kehe. And this song. Oh, syaoran.

I suddenly feel like dancing with a giant pink bear. 

lyrics

fan

Why is my fan on? It's freezing. Maybe it's my extreme desire for summer to get here fast and furious.