busy forgetting pain

"Being busy helps you forget your pain." Is that really true? Somehow I want to rebel against that. I don't think it's really true at all. You can be busy and still be in pain. But actually doing something is always better than sitting around and shriveling up in your distorted mind. I've been busy this week. Not really feeling pain, or much at all. I just feel halfway like a machine on a schedule, and halfway like a sudden realization that I'm human. Is this my gray area?

Underwater Girl

Sleep deprived, yawning, tears of tire-dom. I fell asleep in class with my back to the wall, head up and down. I placed a chain of thoughts and visualization in my dozing dream, and when I opened my eyes I was replaced in another reality. I walked out of there without thinking of other people, and looked at the cloudy overcast over the sky; like a clean gray quilt spread over the expanses, not giving a single hint to blue underneath. It's raining, and just by remembering it, I still feel underwater.