creative power in the opposite direction

I've been writing a lot of poems on Whatomic. But it's crazy, because I'm supposed to be working on rewriting a part of a different poem I wrote a little while ago. It's like I'm unconsciously saying "NO!" to that, and got a burst of creative power in the opposite direction. That usually happens when I'm built up with homework and do something else instead. But oh, thank goodness school is over. Although I'm so incredibly bored now.

Premature suicidal thoughts

Everyone says death is painful, even though they've never experienced it.
I wonder if it's the opposite?