Starduster

I never thought I would post this song, just because it's not one I listen to on a regular basis. I didn't like the tune at first, but because it was called 'Starduster', I listened to the whole thing. And I still didn't like it. But lately I've been listening to it, and it ate me up, bones and all. "No doubt I'm just drifting on this space dust forever." It's Miku Hatsune again, so sorry if you don't like her voice. It makes me feel so freakin' sad.

 

Here's a human cover I found by [seen Otaku(translate)] : Starduster

Premature suicidal thoughts

Everyone says death is painful, even though they've never experienced it.
I wonder if it's the opposite?

I am Myself

I had forgotten something important.
I am not a coward.
I am only myself, no one else.
No need to look so closely at things just to make them unbearable.
I am the Captain of my Soul.
I control my fate; not my environment, not my parents, not my peers, not the places I'm in, not the government. 
Just because there are six billion other people out there, does not mean I am worthless, does not mean I can't make a difference, does not mean I am not myself.
I am myself, and no one else.
I am not a coward.
I am not afraid.
I am not weak.
I am not in doubt.
I am myself, and no one else.

And I am getting back on my feet.
Now.

Obviously KO

I'm not "OK". 
Obviously,
I am "K.O."
obviously-

Mad Man

You can deal with all that blether later,
right now
I just wanna laugh like a mad man.

Thoughts to Remain Sane

When I'm at school, this is what I think to remain sane:

"Don't be kidnapped by aliens yet."
"Don't go to another dimension yet."
"Chocolate cake is waiting at the other end of the hall."
"Just think about weird phrases!"
"Think about Fairyland!"
"Don't run dance in flowers yet."
"You'll disappear in another moment, so it doesn't matter."
"ooo, scary stories"
"Momotaro!"
"Goblin spiders like to crawl on my dead soul *smiles*"
"Waltzing with Death can leave you feeling cold, but warm!"
"Hurray! I get to die!"
"Where is my adorable blue Saturday from the sea?"

And people all look at me funny.

Princess Mononoke

This time it's Joe Hisaishi again, playing the soundtrack from Princess Mononoke. That is one of my most favorite movies of all time. I watched it when I was like five, and loved every second of it, the blood, gore, and everything. I begged my mom to rent it again. The music is one of my treasures.