Starduster

I never thought I would post this song, just because it's not one I listen to on a regular basis. I didn't like the tune at first, but because it was called 'Starduster', I listened to the whole thing. And I still didn't like it. But lately I've been listening to it, and it ate me up, bones and all. "No doubt I'm just drifting on this space dust forever." It's Miku Hatsune again, so sorry if you don't like her voice. It makes me feel so freakin' sad.

 

Here's a human cover I found by [seen Otaku(translate)] : Starduster

Premature suicidal thoughts

Everyone says death is painful, even though they've never experienced it.
I wonder if it's the opposite?

I am Myself

I had forgotten something important.
I am not a coward.
I am only myself, no one else.
No need to look so closely at things just to make them unbearable.
I am the Captain of my Soul.
I control my fate; not my environment, not my parents, not my peers, not the places I'm in, not the government. 
Just because there are six billion other people out there, does not mean I am worthless, does not mean I can't make a difference, does not mean I am not myself.
I am myself, and no one else.
I am not a coward.
I am not afraid.
I am not weak.
I am not in doubt.
I am myself, and no one else.

And I am getting back on my feet.
Now.

Obviously KO

I'm not "OK". 
Obviously,
I am "K.O."
obviously-

Mad Man

You can deal with all that blether later,
right now
I just wanna laugh like a mad man.

Thoughts to Remain Sane

When I'm at school, this is what I think to remain sane:

"Don't be kidnapped by aliens yet."
"Don't go to another dimension yet."
"Chocolate cake is waiting at the other end of the hall."
"Just think about weird phrases!"
"Think about Fairyland!"
"Don't run dance in flowers yet."
"You'll disappear in another moment, so it doesn't matter."
"ooo, scary stories"
"Momotaro!"
"Goblin spiders like to crawl on my dead soul *smiles*"
"Waltzing with Death can leave you feeling cold, but warm!"
"Hurray! I get to die!"
"Where is my adorable blue Saturday from the sea?"

And people all look at me funny.

Princess Mononoke

This time it's Joe Hisaishi again, playing the soundtrack from Princess Mononoke. That is one of my most favorite movies of all time. I watched it when I was like five, and loved every second of it, the blood, gore, and everything. I begged my mom to rent it again. The music is one of my treasures.

Invictus

Invictus
by William Ernest Henley

"Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find, me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll.
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul."

Useless

Even if I'm useless, I'll be here anyways

Casually Complimented

I got casually complimented today.
Yay!

French Bread

When I was small, I always had to eat my french bread with butter melted completely by the microwave. I could never just eat it plain, or with the butter just dabbed on. It was unacceptable.
My dog loves french bread. 

Porco Rosso

I've always loved this soundtrack from Porco Rosso, another Studio Ghibli film. It's so calming to me. Pigs are awesome flyers. I love Joe Hisaishi!

Sick and Soda

When we're sick, suddenly the refrigerator is full of soda. It scares me when my mom is sick, it's just so wrong. Nasty sounds coming from the bathroom are the worst of it all.

Useless

Even if it's useless, I'll do it anyways.

The Path of Wind

This is beautiful. It's from a film I've loved since I was a kid; My Neighbor Totoro. I love to see Joe Hisaishi in the flesh. Kaze no toorimichi, or The Path of Wind.

No one Knows

"Dare mo shiranai anata no kamen
Dare mo shiranai anata no kao
No one knows your mask
No one knows your face"

Scarred Orange

I love the scarred oranges.

Moonlight Restaurant

I realized I hadn't put this song up, and I thought it was a shame. I've listened to it quite a lot. I couldn't find the lyrics just written down anywhere, so if you want to know what she's saying along with the romaji, then watch this version: Miku Hatsune- Moonlight Restaurant [English and Romaji]. I like the covers infinitely better. They makes me think of weird things. I found the bottom video just after I posted this, and found that I had to put it up here. They're both different covers. The first one is by Ume, the second one is by acane_madder.There's a lot more covers than this, some by men, but I'm just putting this up for the sake of time.

Go and Catch a Falling Star

I like this poem. It's used in my favorite book; Howl's Moving Castle by Diana Wynne Jones. I still haven't quite figured it out. 

Go and Catch a Falling Star
by John Donne

Go and catch a falling star,
Get with child a mandrake root,
Tell me where all past years are,
Or who cleft the devil's foot,
Teach me to hear mermaids singing,
Or to keep off envy's stinging,
And find
What wind
Serves to advance an honest mind.

If thou be'st born to strange sights,
Things invisible to see,
Ride ten thousand days and nights,
Till age snow white hairs on thee,
Thou, when thou return'st, wilt tell me,
All strange wonders that befell thee,
And swear,
No where
Lives a woman true, and fair.

If thou find'st one, let me know,
Such a pilgrimage were sweet;
Yet do not, I would not go,
Though at next door we might meet;
Though she were true, when you met her,
At last, till you write your letter,
Yet she
Will be
False, ere I come, to two, or three.

Daruma Doll

I want a Daruma Doll. They intrigue me. It's a Japanese doll modeled after Bodhidharma. You color in one eye when you make a wish/goal, and you fill in the other when it's complete or fulfilled.
When the Japanese play red-light, green-light, they don't say "lights". Instead they say "Daruma-san ga koronda", which means "The Daruma Doll fell over". Those funny little things.

Tuesdays

I hate Tuesdays. If you consider Wednesday the hump day, where it all goes down from there, then Tuesday is the worst day. Monday is fine, because you're fresh from the break, and Thursday and Friday are just heading for the week-end, so it's fine. And of course the week-end is great. But Tuesday is the day I loathe. It's always the hardest for me.

Brain

My heart is a battlefield of death, and my fate is a buried toxic wasteland. My body already has two feet in the grave, so I gave up all of it to cherish only one thing. My brain, my mind, my memories, my thoughts, my opinions, my contradictions, all of it is all of me.

Selfish

I'm extremely selfish. I suppose I'm human in that respect.

Electrocuted bunny

My hair takes the look of an electrocuted bunny when I get out of the shower and it finally dries. Today I decided, well, if I look this way, I should go all out. With a sunshiney coat, and everything.

Wee

Wee wee wee, all the way home. My whole family does that. As soon as they get home, they immediately head for the bathrooms.

If my Grandma

If my grandma switched from cleaning juices to mandrake juice, dragon blood, and vaporized toad dust, she would be a witch.

Sky-Sound

Not that I've watched this movie, but I heard this song, and I felt it move. Why am I such a fan of sky-sounding soundtracks? Oh, maybe it's because that was my first day-dream story. A sky-world with lots and lots of humongous flying birds and winged machinery, and legends involving magic. I really should finish writing that. Or at least figure out what I'm going to do with it. I'm not going to let it die into a regret like old leaves that used to be wishes.

So tired.

I'm so tired, I could eat a horse
.....though that doesn't make much sense.

Mandrakes

I researched mandrakes and mandragoras on wikipedia, and I was amazed. Every single bit of the plant is poisonous. The root looks like a person, and it was used in witchcraft and alchemy. Not to mention all the weird legends about them...

Pessimistic

Somehow whenever I start being even a little bit optimistic, something bad happens to throw it off. I wonder if that's why I'm always been so pessimistic.

Tautology

Tautology:

 Noun

1. The saying of the same thing twice in different words, generally considered to be a fault of style (e.g., they arrived one after the...
2. A phrase or expression in which the same thing is said twice in different words.

-google def.

Have I been said twice in different words?
Tautology

Lyrics

One minute

I'd rather stay in my room for an indefinable amount of time, than gather together for one minute. Because you said one minute, and then you said two.

It's a pig, not an elephant

Hmm, like I thought, I still think that it's a pig. Not an elephant. Maybe a pig with a long snout, but hey, it's still got a pig nose, and it's definitely orangish pigish colored. That, and its tail is sort-of squiggly. Yes, that plush animal is definitely a pig, not an elephant, mom.

Don't Sleep Upside Down

I should never ever sleep upside down with my head at the end of my bed. It always ends up giving me nightmares for some reason. Last night, and that time to..

Kazemachi Hello World

Yeah, chocolate; it's my weakness.

For translation of the song, watch this video if you want: Hatsune Miku- kazemachi hello world
According to Ame Subs, 'Kazemachi' means 'Waiting for a favorable wind'. I always thought it meant something like 'Wind town/city'. Well,whatever.

The best day is the First

Yeah, now that I think about it, the best day of my break was the first one. The first day is always the best. Now there's only one day left, and all I can think about is it ending. I hate that.