meat

The most I can say about today was that it gave me too much meat.

The Hardest Jigsaw

I just found this animation today! It's awesome. It makes me wish I was good at jigsaw puzzles, or at least have the patience to complete one.
since the stupid youtube gadget is still not working for me, here's the link: The hardest Jigsaw 2010 Animation

A Geek dreaming of drop-kicking someone (wait, that's a bit dangerous, isn't it?)

When no ones watching in a store's aisle, I suddenly have the urge to do a cartwheel, or dropkick somebody awesomely. *sigh*, I always have the wish to be an awesome fighter, but I'm too lazy to actually do anything about it. Or rather, maybe I just don't feel I have the skill. Because I don't. I love those times in movies where there's hand to hand combat, and the main character just ultimately pwns the enemy. It's just so cool! I always scream like a fangirl, or drool with the awesomeness, or both. In the end, I'm just an otaku. It's great, though, being a geek. Only when you have a new things to geek over, though. When I don't have a good new storyline or character to obsess over, I get grumpy. By the way, this is awesome: Tomoyo super combo hit

Jenga

I can't stop listening to this song. Even though its a sad song, it makes me feel as though I can face any challenge no matter how painful. I wonder why...?
I couldn't find the video to put on here, so here's the link: Jenga [Chibita]
Please listen to it.

lyrics

hurting

Just because someone out there is hurting worse than you are, it doesn't mean your pain in insignificant and is not hurting at all.

Letter to the sky

Is a paper airplane a letter to the sky?

Beethoven

We passed by Beethoven in the grocery store today. Sorry man, I just couldn't stop laughing.

Ur-Style

New song! I found it yesterday when I was bored. It's a simple song about dancing, but I like it. I like the feel, especially. Cover by Airi. Let's do things My-style.

Lyrics

original song

Richard Cory

Richard Cory

Whenever Richard Cory went down town,
We people on the pavement looked at him:
He was a gentleman from sole to crown,
Clean favored, and imperially slim.

And he was always quietly arrayed,
And he was always human when he talked;
But still he fluttered pulses when he said,
'Good-morning,' and he glittered when he walked.

And he was rich - yes, richer than a king -
And admirably schooled in every grace:
In fine, we thought that he was everything
To make us wish that we were in his place.

So on we worked, and waited for the light,
And went without the meat, and cursed the bread;
And Richard Cory, one calm summer night,
Went home and put a bullet through his head.

~Edwin Arlington Robinson
found at Poem Hunter

Present Timeline

I can't believe how many childhood memories I had forgotten about. They seem so far away that its hard to believe that I was even there in the first place. It's strange, almost like the deja vu you see sometimes of the future. You can't even believe that you would ever be in a different place than the place you are in now. It's hard to see past the boundaries of a present timeline. Yet, I still feel like I'm time-warping when I remember my past thoughts.

Mr. Fay

There is a fairy in my school. I swear it on my name. He looks like a normal 40 year old man, and he seems like a normal 40 year old man, but his name gives him away. Oh, don't get me wrong, I do not mean he's gay by any means. He has a record player in his room, with old computers and keyboards, and I have absolutely no clue what he teaches. Does he even teach anything? Do fairies teach things? I talked to him for just a second, and he seems pretty chill. But I learned one of the old words for fairy, and am now convinced he is a magical being just for the fun of it. I'm reading about fairies and things lately. It's super fun to learn the history and theories from people behind them. All the old words for fairy are intensely focus-grabbing for me, because they look so cool! I like the old ways of spelling things. Like colour instead of color.

Steel Wings

I heard somewhere that a bird who has had their wings damaged will never fly again. I'm here to nullify that statement. I had my right wing violently torn all the way off. And it's taken years, and they will never grow back, but I have made myself, through trial and error, some steel wings with boosters that will fly me even higher than the ones I was born with! I'm so terribly excited for the test-flight I can't wait!

Namida

I've been having a new burst of confidence and courage lately, and I think that it has a lot to do with this song. When I was super stressed out about school, I just listened to this song. It reminded me that everything I think is a huge problem now is really just as important as nill, and that all I had to do was start working and everything would work out fine. It gave me the courage to stand up again and face everything that was facing me. I knew about this song a long time ago, but I never thought anything of it; I didn't even like it. But now I like it so much I printed out the English translation just so I can have it in my room. 'Namida' means 'Tears'.

Oh, and to anyone who loves anime, I recommend Skip Beat!

Don't Like

I think it's funny how when you ask someone their favorite thing, they don't know how to respond. But if you ask all the things they don't like, they'll shove a whole list of things in your direction. It's almost like, as human beings, we only know who we are by what we don't like. That feels a little wrong to me somehow.

It's annoying

I dislike it when I refuse to do something people want/expect me to do, and they immediately switch it to an issue of liking them or not. I'll just not feel like doing it at the moment, and they'll go off on their accusations of how if I don't do whatever it is, it will mean I don't like them or the thing they put their heart and soul into for me to do. It's annoying, untrue, unfair, and plain stupid. There's not even any argument in it. Where's the logic?

My light just went out

My light just went out...
it made a funny noise while it was flickering uneasily.
I looked up curiously,
and flipped the switch down experimentally.
When I tried to turn it back on,
it wouldn't/ couldn't light my way anymore.

Campanella

I found this song just now! I...
"To see the fish in the Milky way,"

State things as they Are

State things as they are. Be brutally honest. Do it without ceremony or taking care to adorn your words. Do not attempt to half-way nullify your words in the same sentence. State things as they are. If someone is a fool, do not say, "I believe that person is acting foolish, though I'm not exactly sure." Say, "That person is a Fool!" Just think of The Emperor and his new clothes. If the little kid at the end did not say it so obviously ("He's naked!"), then I doubt it would've made any impact. State things as they are.

Fate

"There is happiness for those who accept their fate. There is glory for those who resist their fate."
-Edel

I thought I wanted happiness at first, but now I want glory.

Cleaning

The feeling of a finished cleaning job is a really good one. I'm usually too lazy to clean, so I only do it if I'm either bribed, inspired, or simply can't stand it any longer. It's usually the last reason, since I have a real low tolerance rate (though I try to keep that hidden). I'm really good at cleaning my own room, though. Something about it being my domain.

Catharsis

Define: Catharsis

Noun

1. The process of releasing, and thereby providing relief from, strong or repressed emotions.
2. Purgation 

(google)

I love the soundtrack to Kobato; Kaze no Catharsis
I also like Amber Sky, Boushi no Waltz, and Tooi Hi no Wasuremono, heck, I just love them all!

From Y to Y

I've always loved this song, even before I found Clear's cover of it. The way I interpret the title, is that 'Y' stands for 'yes'(relationship), and that since the person singing does not want the relationship to go from 'y to z' (to end), she/he keeps believing in 'y to y'. I think I might've born that interpretation from a comment somewhere, but I don't really remember. I still listen to this song.

 

Original song

romaji and translation

Underwater Girl

Sleep deprived, yawning, tears of tire-dom. I fell asleep in class with my back to the wall, head up and down. I placed a chain of thoughts and visualization in my dozing dream, and when I opened my eyes I was replaced in another reality. I walked out of there without thinking of other people, and looked at the cloudy overcast over the sky; like a clean gray quilt spread over the expanses, not giving a single hint to blue underneath. It's raining, and just by remembering it, I still feel underwater.

Permeate

Define: Permeate

Verb

Spread throughout (something); pervade. (google)

"So as to permeate, it disappeared into the thin air"
-moonlight restaurant

Forgotten Face

Even though I promised myself a long time ago,
that the most important thing was to remember.
And, that I told her I would never become a hypocrite;
to be happy in these times?
When others are in a pain,
experiencing a pain severe enough to bleed through facial barriers,
how could I become the person I'd resented,
at that time of envy?

Like I've healed?
Like I've been set free?
That's not so bad, is it?

It's almost as though I've forgotten,
no,
I still....

Time has dulled everything,
It has taken away most of the weight.
Still...,
I think if I saw that face one more time,
I might remember.

Every single pain

Sagittarius

So tired, I could almost fall asleep standing up. Like a horse. Centaur? Well, I am a Sagittarius.

River Riddle

A riddle I came up with for English

Who heads home to the ocean,                                                        

a maiden in lace?
Fingers before her,
and the wind on her face?
Who heads home to the ocean,
the map all a muddle
Yet all passed beside her,
Won't have her befuddled?

The scent of March

Have I ever told you how much I like March? I hate February, since its icky with all the mud, and stress that comes with school. But March is beautiful, even if it is stressful. I think it has to do with the smell of the wind. You can almost taste the scent of spring.

Saint Tail

This is a song that I took the pain to actually learn by ear to play on my clarinet. My friend asked today where it came from, so here it is for all to see. Though it's a bit embarrassing. This is the main theme from a show that I really like called Kaitou Saint Tail (Thief Saint Tail)/ or just Saint Tail. I watched the whole series on Veoh (Episode 1). I even own all the manga for it, even though they're out of print already. Sometimes, I scare myself.....ha. I just really love thief shows, like Kamikaze Kaitou Jeanne. Actually, I think I like Kamikaze Kaitou Jeanne even more than this one. But this one is still so much fun to watch and read for some reason. Hmmm. Otaku.

Her Morning Elegance

I was shown this stop motion animation in my 'much hated'(except at the very end) digital media class last semester, and its taken me this long to remember it and put it up here. I remember seeing it, and just falling in love with it, since its so amazing. I really like stop motion animation. The song is unexpectedly sad, though.

Acquainted with the Night

Acquainted with the Night

I have been one acquainted with the night.
I have walked out in rain -- and back in rain.
I have outwalked the furthest city light.

I have looked down the saddest city lane.
I have passed by the watchman on his beat
And dropped my eyes, unwilling to explain.

I have stood still and stopped the sound of feet
When far away an interrupted cry
Came over houses from another street,

But not to call me back or say good-bye;
And further still at an unearthly height,
A luminary clock against the sky

Proclaimed the time was neither wrong nor right.
I have been one acquainted with the night. 

~Robert Frost 

found at Poemhunter

Chocolate ice cream

This problem is a tad bit too hard to be solved over chocolate ice cream.