Penpal

For Christmas my older brother Devin got me 3 books, all relating to scary stuff. He's a horror fan, who constantly watches millions of scary movies, which I can't bear to look a minute at. But he's also the one that told me to read Saya in Underworld, a blog that has my undivided attention because it has these incredibly awesome translated Japanese scary stories. I've read them all.

Anyways, I read the first book. It's called Penpal by Dathan Auerbach. Ohmygosh. It's the most freakiest thing I've ever read. Ever. While I was reading it, I just felt like screaming the whole time. But it was also supremely entertaining. I'm not going to even say mildly what it's about, because I feel like it would be a spoiler for the first chapter. Ohmygosh. I stayed up until 6 one night reading it, not able to go to sleep for fear there was someone in the house. I couldn't stop reading it either. It's been about 3 days since I've finished it, and I feel like I've been scarred for life.

Just read it, and you'll know what I'm talking about.

Sigh

aaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Twinkle Melody

No lyrics to be found. Boo.

Jingle Bells

romaji

Sonnet 130

SONNET 130

My mistress' eyes are nothing like the sun;
Coral is far more red than her lips' red;
If snow be white, why then her breasts are dun;
If hairs be wires, black wires grow on her head.
I have seen roses damask'd, red and white,
But no such roses see I in her cheeks;
And in some perfumes is there more delight
Than in the breath that from my mistress reeks.
I love to hear her speak, yet well I know
That music hath a far more pleasing sound;
I grant I never saw a goddess go;
My mistress, when she walks, treads on the ground:
   And yet, by heaven, I think my love as rare
   As any she belied with false compare.

-Shakespeare

Fallacy

Define Fallacy:

noun

   noun: fallacy; plural noun: fallacies

1.

a mistaken belief, esp. one based on unsound argument.

  
Logic

a failure in reasoning that renders an argument invalid.

faulty reasoning; misleading or unsound argument. 

"the potential for fallacy which lies behind the notion of self-esteem"

Paperman

better version here.

Life is but a Dream

Life is but a Dream

A boat, beneath a sunny sky
Lingering onward dreamily
In an evening of July

Children three that

nestle near,
Eager eye and willing ear,
Pleased a simple tale to hear

Long has paled that sunny sky;
Echoes fade and memories die;
Autumn frosts have slain July.

Still she haunts me, phantomwise,
Alice moving under skies
Never seen by waking eyes.

Children yet, the tale to hear,
Eager eye and willing ear,
Lovingly shall nestle near.

In a Wonderland they lie,
Dreaming as the days go by,
Dreaming as the summers die;

Ever drifting down the stream
Lingering in the golden gleam
Life, what is it but a dream?

 

-Lewis Carroll

Merry Christmas Mr. Lawrence-FYI

Like I promised.

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Merry Christmas Mr. Lawrence

Oh, if I think of Christmas, it just has to be this song. I've been listening to this for years.

There are so many versions of this song....it's difficult picking just one.
Utada Hikaru also did a pop version of it with lyrics, I'll post it next, but here's a link: FYI 

sleep habits and germaphobic tendencies

My sleep habits are way out of the boundary of 'bad'; their Terrible! Well, actually, if I compare from a few years ago, maybe they've gotten better? And then worse? And then better? And then worse? Oh? Do I see a pattern going on here. Well, I really need to straighten it out. Thanksgiving is tomorrow, and (I'm not gonna lie) I'm actually dreading all the company coming over tomorrow. It's just...awkward. There's people I'm not so good with cramming into our little house. My sister's soon to be fiance, and she's not here... I'm quite sure my dad will behave himself(I hope). If I'm forced to eat my dad's fruit plate, I'm going to make myself throw-up(not serious, since that's even scarier). He never washes his hands for anything. I've become sort-of a germaphobe because of him. Eww.

A Line-Storm Song

A Line-Storm Song

The line-storm clouds fly tattered and swift,
The road is forlorn all day,
Where a myriad snowy quartz stones lift,
And the hoof-prints vanish away.
The roadside flowers, too wet for the bee,
Expend their bloom in vain.
Come over the hills and far with me,
And be my love in the rain.

The birds have less to say for themselves
In the wood-world’s torn despair
Than now these numberless years the elves,
Although they are no less there:
All song of the woods is crushed like some
Wild, easily shattered rose.
Come, be my love in the wet woods; come,
Where the boughs rain when it blows.

There is the gale to urge behind
And bruit our singing down,
And the shallow waters aflutter with wind
From which to gather your gown.
What matter if we go clear to the west,
And come not through dry-shod?
For wilding brooch shall wet your breast
The rain-fresh goldenrod.

Oh, never this whelming east wind swells
But it seems like the sea’s return
To the ancient lands where it left the shells
Before the age of the fern;
And it seems like the time when after doubt
Our love came back amain.
Oh, come forth into the storm and rout
And be my love in the rain.

-Robert Frost

Fly Me to the Moon

I've been researching 1920's movies for a history class group assignment. This came up while looking them up on youtube. Love it. It's so funny how he sticks out his arms at the end. Fly me to the Moon is a song my family has a lot of ties to.

I also love Charlie Chaplin's vids.

Prisoner of Love

Utada Hikaru! Prisoner of Love! I don't think I ever heard this song of hers until yesterday.

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Lemon Elegy

Lemon Elegy

You had been so waiting for a lemon
In your sad and white and bright deathbed,
Your perfect teeth bit with a crunch
Into the lemon you took from my hand.
A topaz coloured scent arose.
Those few drops of heavenly lemon juice
Suddenly made you normal again.
Your shining lucid eyes smiled gently,
You gripped my hand with such a healthy strength!
Though there was a storm in your throat,
In these last moments of your life
You became the old Chieko again,
You focused a life of love into one moment
And then you took a big breath
Like on the mountain peaks long ago,
And in that breath your engine shut down.
Today, once again, under the cherry blossoms
By your photograph, I'll put a coldly shining lemon. 

-Kotaro Takamura

I just love the Chieko Poems, especially this one.

The Chieko Poems 

Final Distance

Some of Utada Hikaru's best songs are hidden so it's hard to find them. This is one.
Distance remix m-flo

Utada Hikaru made the ballad version of this song (Final Distance) after hearing about a school stabbing where a 6-year old girl had died. Rena Yamashita (the girl that died) had won an essay contest about how she wanted to be like Utada Hikaru.

if you want to read more:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Final_Distance
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Osaka_school_massacre

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or something

ahhh, even though I hardly have any homework, I'm finding it hard to do the things I want to do. Like write. Or sleep. Or read. Or something. How frustrating.

Passion

Utada Hikaru is largely to blame for my love of Japanese music. I think I'll post some more of her.

I love how this music video is so random.

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Fidelity amv

This freakin' amv always makes me cry.

from the anime movie Wolf Children Ame and Yuki.

elegy

Define elegy:

1. a poem of serious reflection, typically a lament for the dead.

2. (in Greek and Roman poetry) a poem written in elegiac couplets, as notably by Catullus and Propertius.

-Google

Red Ridinghood's Wolf

Red riding hood, here's a song from the almighty Kikuo(be afraid, very afraid) about your wolf. Kikuo always does these twisted, happy sounding songs. I like them too much. I wanted to post a lot of Halloween music this month, but the month is almost over, and I've only posted Dark Woods Circus. *sigh* boo.

romaji

Rubber band

I'm sick of being Shrunken, pulled, and Stretched! From today on, I will be a rubber band!

Counting Stars Amv

Whoo! I hadn't realized I hadn't posted this yet.

Love this amv.

Halloween Anime

This won't include all of them, but here are some of my recommendations if you want a Halloween themed anime to watch. Note that some of these aren't actually scary.
Vampires
Shiki
Vampire Knight

Ghosts/ Dead
Ghost Hunt
Zombie Loan

Mystery
XXXholic
Psychic Detective Yakumo

Movie
Urban legend Hikiko
Kakurenbo: Hide and Seek

Think outside the Box

They say to think outside the box, and I have. But what I've found is that if you let them overflow too much, you won't have much left to drink. They'll be scattered, and its hard to pick up. You'll start stretching between the gaps that have been left, and in the end you might not have anything left.

Dark Woods Circus

Dark woods circus. Yeah.

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Pee Mak

If you want an awesome horror, comedy, romance movie, I'm telling you, watch Pee Mak.

Scary for starters

Okay, well, I want to do something for October. You know, something scary? I'll try to be posting scary songs and stuff. But for starters, if you want a good Japanese scary story, check out http://sayainunderworld.blogspot.com/. It will not disappoint you. I know I've been slacking, sorry!

something funny and romantic

This is the most funny kiss scene I've ever seen. Oh, by the way the girl is his same age, she's just small.

From the anime Honey and Clover.

if a tree

"If a tree falls in a forest and no one is around to hear it, does it make a sound?"

my Answer: Yes, but not to you.

I'm cold...yeah

it's gotten pretty cold....and we still haven't vacuumed out the vents yet, so no heater for our house. I'm wearing a coat right now....my room is the coldest, I swear, because it has a big window for one, two walls that face the outside, and a closet that has a ceiling door to the attic. I'm dying....

Piano Lesson

I know I've been lazy lately......but I hate school........so here's another song......
can never find it on that youtube thing...here's the link: Piano Lesson- Rearrage [Chibita & Kous]

Miku-Piano Lesson asp-mix

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Bye Bye Sayonara

I know I'm obsessed....
this song become a favorite of my mom for some reason.

Original video- Miku Hatsune

 Cover by Akiakane

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tap dancing, Claude style

Well, that's an awesome way to set a table.

and, excuse me, but I love this, too.

say

It's always surprising to find out exactly how much I have to say.

Bright Moon At Autumn's Dawn

I was just listening to this song, and I decided to post it. Not like it's a rare occurrence, anyways. It is definitely pretty, though I will admit for some reason, that I'm not all that attached to it. But Autumn is coming, and Chinese is surprisingly refreshing to listen to once in a while. So there you go.

aesthetics

Define aesthetics:

1.a set of principles concerned with the nature and appreciation of beauty, esp. in art.

*the branch of philosophy that deals with the principles of beauty and artistic taste.

 

a set of principles underlying and guiding the work of a particular artist or artistic movement.

(google)

Rain Storm

It's like, what, 4:30, and it's dark like it's dusk. Rain Storm! YEah!

weight

"I just saw a flash of red out of the corner of my eye
I have a hideous foreboding
Ah, is this your first time seeing that, young master?
If your eyes happen to meet,
don't break eye contact; just back away slowly
and call out from a safe distance,
"Say, have you gained weight?" "- Sabastian
(Season 2, episode 2)

Black Butler quotes

Some quotes from Black Butler. ke he he.

"One night, Zhuang Zhou dreamt he was a butterfly. He was a happily fluttering butterfly. It was so much fun. He could fly wherever he wanted. And he had no thought of being Zhou, but suddenly he woke up, and was startled to find that he was now Zhou. He couldn’t decide: Was he Zhou who’d dreamt he was a butterfly or a butterfly now dreaming he was Zhou? Between being Zhou and a butterfly, surely there must be some distinction. This is what we call the transformation of things."- Lau

(To Ciel) "That means you will steadily sink into mud. Even if you step toward a place from which you can't return, you choose not to reveal your screaming for help to other people, eh?"- Lau

"Woof!" -Ciel

"I'm arrogant, but not so much that I'd irresponsibly save someone just to brag about it." - Ciel Phantomhive

"Even if the throne crumbles and the brilliant crown rusts, even the empty shells of pawn pile up and we rest upon their decaying bodies, i will lie beside your smalls formand until the last bell tolls, until that time ..."- Sebastian

Searching For (by Autumn Leaves)

These guys have fallen into oblivion...if they weren't there in the first place. It's hard, because I actually like you Autumn Leaves! At least I can still listen to this song; it is my favorite.

hmm, yeah. No lyrics.

Hiro no Hoshi

OOo, a song!
Link: Fractale Ost- Hiro no Hoshi

couldn't find lyrics.

575

I don't know why I like this one song from Perfume so much. I like their other songs, but this one just seems to stand out. 575- haiku. The whole song is written in lines that follow 5 syllables, 7, and 5.

 

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Parakeet

alien?

train

I got to ride the train yesterday! It was raining, so it was extra fun!

Summer Wars

I watched Summer Wars yesterday for the first time. It was freakin' awesome! And now I can't stop listening to the soundtrack. My favorite character is King Kazma, yeah. Martial arts bunny! I think I'll put up all the crafts I did during the summer up tomorrow.

car rides

I don't like long car rides. I mean, I like them because I get to see things, but I always get headaches.

funk

Woah, sorry there. I don't have anything to write about. I mean, really. I don't have anything random to say. It's funny how I get on here just to say what I don't have to say. sorry. Just enjoy the funk.

Entropy

Define: entropy

1. A thermodynamic quantity representing the unavailability of a system's thermal energy for conversion into mechanical work, often...
2. Lack of order or predictability; gradual decline into disorder.

Sky Fish

I always see fish and whales in the clouds. It's fun, really. There's a whole ocean up there.

Strangers

Oh yeah, I like dis song. It's pretty. I can see the moon. Most of all Wolf's Rain soundtrack is good, actually.

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Dreamer

“Yes: I am a dreamer. For a dreamer is one who can only find his way by moonlight, and his punishment is that he sees the dawn before the rest of the world.” - Oscar Wilde

Nomenclature

Define: Nomenclature

1. The devising or choosing of names for things, esp. in a science or other discipline.
2. The body or system of such names in a particular field: "the nomenclature of chemical compounds".

tired

I'm tired. And I ran out of chocolate. What am I gonna do?!

Spending all my time

Hmm, it's been a while since I've listened to Perfume. But here's a new song that I've taken a liking to. Maybe it wouldn't be a good thing to wish for, but I think it would be cool to be psychic.

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gifts

Sometimes accepting a gift is more appreciative than refusing for the others own good.

On Your Mark

There's this awesome music video animated by Hayao Miyazaki called 'On Your Mark'. I didn't realized I hadn't posted about it yet. The music is by Chage and Aska. I love the cops. You can watch it on Dailymotion: here.

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Punctuation

Death is only the punctuation at the end of a sentence. A declaration that you lived in the first place.

too late to tell

Yay! A new song.

cover by【鹿乃】.

romaji 

Translation- see comments

Calc.

Here's another little song that I like. Cover by Wotamin, and it's a piano version. A sad love song.

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rain

From the library to the rain!

Patchwork Eden

I've got paint all over my arms- a souvenir from this morning. Maybe I should've put this song up earlier, when I found it, but all well, here it is now. Another vocaloid song- a warning for those of you who don't like them. Gumi. I still don't know what in the world this song is supposed to mean. I mean, I've read theories in the comments, but they don't exactly satisfy me.

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zombies

And zombies with flowers in their hair.

Writing about pain is such a pain. So I'll just skip it.

Oh, sad sad day. I've really got nothing to post. I mean, I guess that I could tell you guys about the pain I've been through in the last few days, but why bother? I don't like writing too much about pain, it's hard to remember, and a 'pain'. I've said this so many times, but I really hate Summer. The only thing I'm doing write now other than writing this is waiting and wishing for it to rain. Please rain, gray clouds above.....I beg you.

wasting time

I know I've been slacking off, but I really don't feel like I have anything to write about on here. It's a hard dilemma, really. And I'm leaving AGain tomorrow, so chances are, I still will be gone from here. I don't know. I thought once Summer began, I could leave all the frustration behind. But I find myself with a whole set of new frustrations when Summer begins, mainly with boredom and the feeling that I'm just wasting my time.

Happy Birthday

Just watched this movie! The time bombed skyscraper- one of the detective conan movies. Saw this before it, though. Love this song.

Song is Happy Birthday by Kyoko

Where the Sidewalk Ends

WHERE THE SIDEWALK ENDS

There is a place where the sidewalk ends
And before the street begins,
And there the grass grows soft and white,
And there the sun burns crimson bright,
And there the moon-bird rests from his flight
To cool in the peppermint wind.

Let us leave this place where the smoke blows black
And the dark street winds and bends.
Past the pits where the asphalt flowers grow
We shall walk with a walk that is measured and slow,
And watch where the chalk-white arrows go
To the place where the sidewalk ends.

Yes we'll walk with a walk that is measured and slow,
And we'll go where the chalk-white arrows go,
For the children, they mark, and the children, they know
The place where the sidewalk ends.

~Shel Silverstein

Mukai Kaze

I'm happy when I find a song for the day.

Opening theme 'Mukai Kaze' by Yohko. anime= Maoyu. Haven't watched it, yet.

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Hard Pumpkin

Life is this hard.

 

I can't seem to stop watching these Nichijou clips.

Λάρισα

little riddle:

"cheerful, lighthearted"
lover of Poseidon
moon of Neptune
City in Thessaly

words.

The silent person wanted the words.

status

People care for status more than they'd like to admit.

God

Loneliness is when I become a God.

X

What is a diagonal line?
Half of an 'X'.

Notice:

We're packing up...going camping today. Which means I won't be here until Wednesday. So farewell blog!

Lucid

Define Lucid:

1. Expressed clearly; easy to understand: "a clear and lucid style".
2.  Showing ability to think clearly, esp. in the intervals between periods of confusion or insanity.

minesweeper

conversing with you is like playing minesweeper.

Which one?

Which one will kill me first? Boredom or Cowardice?

Dead and Alive

The ones alive are the dead. The ones dead are the alive. Isn't it funny?

Kiki's Delivery Service

So, I haven't posted a Joe Hisaishi song/video in a while, like, since January. So on a whim, here is some sound from Kiki's Delivery Service; another beautifully awesome Ghibli film. I'm getting excited for Joe Hisaishi because I just bought Ni No Kuni: Wrath of the White Witch (a video game Ghibli helped animate for PS3) and he created the music for it. It's coming in the mail only a few days from now, so I'm hyped up!

bowl.

It's been a week, but draw a bowl around my head.

11:08

I think it would be so awesome to have your drawings come to life like this.

Thinking Small

I don't have anything to write about because I keep thinking big. But there is now nothing big. So now I've got to start thinking small.

Curtains

They billow inwards.

illusions

You go on an 'adventure', and it turns out to be less exciting and intriguing than your illusions remembered.

想起モノクローム

Watched this. I tried putting the name of it in google translate, but it still didn't make any sense. So I don't know what the title is. But I like it. Reminds me of Dooppel.

If I don't

"If I don't write it, no one will."
-Kevin J. Anderson
from page 288 of the novel Clockwork Angels

creative power in the opposite direction

I've been writing a lot of poems on Whatomic. But it's crazy, because I'm supposed to be working on rewriting a part of a different poem I wrote a little while ago. It's like I'm unconsciously saying "NO!" to that, and got a burst of creative power in the opposite direction. That usually happens when I'm built up with homework and do something else instead. But oh, thank goodness school is over. Although I'm so incredibly bored now.

songs without words

We all start out as songs without words.

French Roast

Hey, I watched this just now while I was actually looking for something else. That nun is totally the bad guy. hahaha. The irony.

Tori no Uta

Sorry. 'tis been slacking off. I've known this song for a million gazillion (not really) years, but I realized that I've never put the songs that I've known for a long time on any of my blogs. Tori no Uta, song of the bird. From the anime 'Air'

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slow poke

I'll show you what a real slowpoke is like. They poke you, real slow.

deriT

Well, running around all day isn't too bad, I guess. Ah, finally tomorrow is FRIDAY. So Tired. I do a lot of things better backwards than forwards. Like tricks, my personality, humor, taste in music. Hmm. I like it.

no matter how slow, Step by Step

Everything I fear is so much easier to overcome than I thought..
is this also one of life's lessons?
I remembered a quote that I loved last year.
"It doesn't matter how slowly you go- so long as you do not stop." -Confucius
I always used it, in my head.
I guess I don't have to worry that much about the future, since I can only do what I can right now. If you want a kind future for yourself, then be kind to the present. In truth, the present is the future of the past. So technically we are all living in the future. It's not that scary, is it? I always start out the day already tired thinking the whole schedule through. But once I get started and forget, it's over before I knew it, and always a lot more easier than I ever dreamed. Sometimes, I even miss it.
We don't have to run. Running doesn't last.
What we have to do to meet the future is go step by step. We can't become discouraged by the distance to the finish line. There are no short cuts. Instead of thinking, "are we there yet?", watch the scenery as you pass by it, and notice the colors. It's not the destination that's important, but rather the journey. Treasure the people around you, because there will come a time where you won't be able to see them all the time. In the end, it's the heart that matters. And just look at your heart! It has been beating for you since before you were born. Does it think "Oh, just wait until the finish line so I can stop?" no. It's beating just to keep you alive, just a second more, just a minute more. It's keeping you alive, step by step.

Love Story meets Viva La Vida

So pretty. I can imagine a bunch of things here.

Imagination Comparison Theory? NEBULAE

It was created by sadness, but here is my utmost, um, what would you call it? Imagination comparison theory? Whatever. Here is a small peek inside my head from five years ago. And now. I've been waiting to write this, actually.

I am nebulae.
Every person is a celestial object.
This includes suns, moons, stars, planets, asteroids, comets, etc.
Each have their own type of personality, based on what they are.
Anyways, the person I was five years ago was ripped apart
so I exploded,
and was reduced to colorful dust without a shape, floating in a cloud of disconnected consciousness.
So I am nebulae.

However, even dust is unallowed to stay still.
But it's okay, because
now I can be whatever I want to be,
and take that shape.

so in other words, I have a rather strange connection to nebulae, or space things in general.

Hero

If there are no hero's around to save you,
save yourself.
Become a hero.

shot down

Ah man, it's just a double no...
Alice was shot down!
as were the hobo and normal

I Came to Eat the Rice Special

Hm. Rice. Is it really that yummy by itself?

cover by midoriinu(greendog). Read the lyrics. It'll all make (some) sense. Original by Gumi.

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weeding

Just weeding the strawberries and dodging the spiders. I wanna go rollerblading.

Step by Step

I guess it's time to put this up. I usually like to feel the song before I post it though. Crystal Kay. And yes, I've seen this movie. It's cute, but kidish(obviously). It's called Jungle Emperor(2009 version).

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Sick and Pun

I'm slacking this month. Man, I'm sick. I had to get up three times during a Health test to blow my nose. I guess Health tests aren't healthy. Haha. Dumb pun. But really, it's not good. I feel like a human faucet.

busy forgetting pain

"Being busy helps you forget your pain." Is that really true? Somehow I want to rebel against that. I don't think it's really true at all. You can be busy and still be in pain. But actually doing something is always better than sitting around and shriveling up in your distorted mind. I've been busy this week. Not really feeling pain, or much at all. I just feel halfway like a machine on a schedule, and halfway like a sudden realization that I'm human. Is this my gray area?

Mononoke/ red riding hood?

yeah, that red hood

Na, I just thought of something funny. In Princess Mononoke, Ashitaka is always wearing that red hood of his. San is a wolf. Stick them into little red riding hood.

Ink

In the end, the ink I thought so black and marking washed away in a little bit of water.

stuffed totoro

Ah, my totoro plush was chewed up by the stupid dog. As I expected....
Gah. I'm so freakin' tired.

Can anything last forever?

Oh, I see now. It was because I have no confidence that anything can last forever. That anything is truly infinite. I can't trust those words, and that is why I'm left this way.

Ki Ni Naru Aitsu

I feel like I've been neglecting this blog....sorry about that. Anyways, I cleaned too much today. I'm worried my hands will fall apart. I really like Cardcaptor sakura. Kehe. And this song. Oh, syaoran.

I suddenly feel like dancing with a giant pink bear. 

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fan

Why is my fan on? It's freezing. Maybe it's my extreme desire for summer to get here fast and furious.

flowers

Hmm, too many flowers. They overwhelm me in their variety of color and smell. Humid heat inside the greenhouse. My favorite flowers? Peony and sunflowers. I also like lilacs.

time to think

Although things are happening to me,
I don't feel like I have anything to write, really.
Maybe it's because,
before I knew it,
I didn't have time to think.
And I'm enjoying it.

Saihate

I've been listening to this song lately, and thinking about the kid that committed suicide who went to my school. I wish I could have met him. I wish I knew who he was. I wish I knew "Why?" The spit in the bottle that I read about him didn't give a single clue to who he really was. Obituaries never hold the important things in them. Neither does death.

There are so many versions of this song. I just posted the original version here. Actually, the version that I was listening to was a remix by kz. Most times the original version doesn't even add up to the remixes and versions. Maybe I'll post links to them later. This is actually a sad song. Death and the line "If you get there all right, I'd like a letter or something."

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pine cone

A ripped up, chewed. Pine cone on my carpet floor.

Feeling like doing something

I feel like going outside and doing something, but it's already 10:30 at night, and I have to go to bed.  Oh, the dilemma. This always happens in the Summer, come to think of it. But it's Spring. I'm just waiting for a blue sky with white clouds.

Dove Real Beauty Sketches

I saw this just now. It's, pretty amazing. I never thought I'd post something I saw as an ad on my blog.

pickled plums

I'm so tired. My eyes feel like pickled plums.

labyrinth

We got caught in a labyrinth of tiled hallways, concrete staircases, black doors, backwoods closets full of nothing important, but everything personal, and a thousand vibrant green exit signs pointing every which way. I wish I had more time to read the cork board that had been drawn all over by a bunch of different people. Things like that..

Shower

Ugh, somehow today felt like I was standing on a bridge over waterworks. Well, I got home and ate some, cleaned up a bit, took a shower. After I took a shower, I felt like everything went down the drain, so I feel much better! Now, just for the awaiting homework...

Just Be Friends

Well, since I posted Hello/How are you two days ago, I feel the need to put up Just Be Friends. I heard the remix version right when I heard the band version of Hello/How are you, so to me they go together. Same sort-of thing with *Tear* , and the original Hello/How are you. They seem to go together to me too. These videos are both covers, with the first one the North-T Arrange remix version by Himawari, and the second  one a cover by T Shounen(guy) singing to a piano version. They almost sound like completely different songs, and they give me completely different feelings when I listen to them. The original version and video(I like it) by Luka Megurine (vocaloid) is in the link at bottom right along with the lyrics. Even though it's usually sung by a girl, the perspective is actually the guy's(learned that just now).

Original version- Luka Megurine

lyrics

Care

Everything would be so easy if only I didn't care. But, somehow I feel that would be a waste. So maybe the thing I have to do is find the right things to care for. And forget the rest.

Small world

I'm bored. Today seems to be filled with half-said sentences and points. I have to do my homework, but I'm procrastinating it until I feel guilty enough to do it. My world seems so small. A small world is okay, and it's comfortable, but I want it to grow. I want to see more things, do more things, be more things. That side of me is human, maybe? Always desiring something more. Whatever, someone give me a taco.

Mark Twain

"The secret to getting ahead is getting started."
"You can't depend on your eyes when your imagination is out of focus."
"Against the assault of laughter nothing can stand."
"Wrinkles should merely indicate where smiles have been."
"It's not the size of the dog in the fight, it's the size of the fight in the dog."
"Do the thing you fear most and the death of fear is certain."
"Any emotion, if it is sincere, is involuntary."
"What a wee little part of a person's life are his acts and his words! His real life is led in his head, and is known to none but himself."
"When you fish for love, bait with your heart, not your brain."
"When red-haired people are above a certain social grade their hair is auburn."
"Thunder is good, thunder is impressive; but it is lightening that does the work."
"The finest clothing made is a person's own skin, but, of course, society demands something more than this."
"Better a broken promise than none at all."
"I have never let my schooling interfere with my education."
"Necessity is the mother of taking chances."
"The secret source of humor is not joy but sorrow; there is no humor in heaven."
~Mark Twain

I think I wrote a bit too much, but that's okay. I love this stuff.

Hello/ How are you

I've loved this song for years. The lyric meaning fits me perfectly when I'm down. When I'm feeling useless and hopeless. First video is original version('cept it's a cover), and the second one is my favorite:  band version.

This is a pretty popular song, actually. 

lyrics

*Tear*

Things I cannot fully convey. Please smile for me

lyrics

Acoustic Arrange version (man singing)

Chains of Thought

Today was one of those days. When I got home I couldn't stop wanting to cry. Just how many chains from my past must I break to live in the present? When can I stop living in the future plagued by the past? I think too much. I know this, but somehow it's not something I can really stop that easily. It's not thinking that's the problem; it's the way the thoughts build themselves. Mine tend to build themselves in chains. I keep learning, and struggling, and freeing myself of a few at a time; it's getting to be exhausting. Five years is a long time. And I keep tripping over the broken pieces on the floor, like an idiot. Chained, like a beast. There's always another story. There's always another reality. There's always another perception. Just waiting to break open. Just waiting to shatter. So tired.

Tigers de plushy

The snow tiger stuffed animal that I always sleep with suddenly found itself with a temporary offspring of a different color.

Out of Battery

Surprise, surprise!
This morning, an angel architecture concert,
Lost my umbrella I used against the snow
My sleeping baby ran out of battery.

Lied again.

Sorry mum.
I lied again.
I feel worse now that you
believed me.

Everything except homework

This break I managed to clean my room, organize my desk drawers to perfection, finally put together that music stand in my closet, and organize my clothes(picking which ones to throw out, and putting the new ones in). On Monday we had gone to see dead people(mummy's). It's great how I managed to do practically everything except my homework.

mountains and roofs

Ahh, I'm tired, and have the feeling of a beautiful break coming to an end. I dislike that feeling, so much I try and do stuff to distract myself from it. I finally got up into the mountains again after a long winter and stretched my legs. I really like it up in high places. I like the feeling of the wind, and the smell of it. I would always try to find ways to get on top of the roofs of the shed and things around my old house. I've never fallen, but there are other dangers besides that..

Ivy Bridge Amv

This is cute. After I saw this, I went and watched the show= Usagi Drop(Bunny drop). I had a large affect on me when I first saw it, mainly to do with my littlest brother. In the end, family is what really matters.

Eating the Media

I 'eat' the books, movies, shows,music, etc., that I like. I eat it all up, just like Bungaku Shoujo...except not so literally. It gets tasteless eating the same thing over and over again, so I've been trying to find other ones that are also tasty. I'm like a survivor on some t.v. show. I go days without finding any food.... and I cry myself to sleep (idiot found).

Punch.

It's always awkward when you only know how to give a half-hearted punch. When you're half-baked and simply don't know what the heck you're doing.

Scissorhands

Scissorhands! Reminds me of Edward scissorhands, that movie. A cover by clear. Read the lyrics.

lyrics

original song by Miku

guitar cover by Osamuraisan

Dusk

My favorite time of all is dusk. I love the colors, and I love the feeling of calm that comes with the setting of the sun. The slip of time between day and night; when the city lights turn on like a million stars. Around each of those stars are planets; around each of those lights are people. Each person holds a thousand stories just waiting to be whispered like a bed-time lullaby. The indigo sky waiting for it's stars. It only stays a few minutes. The last twittering of the birds, the smell of a sweet rainy breeze. A gentle caress away from life; a rift in time. Timeless. My favorite time of all.

meat

The most I can say about today was that it gave me too much meat.

The Hardest Jigsaw

I just found this animation today! It's awesome. It makes me wish I was good at jigsaw puzzles, or at least have the patience to complete one.
since the stupid youtube gadget is still not working for me, here's the link: The hardest Jigsaw 2010 Animation

A Geek dreaming of drop-kicking someone (wait, that's a bit dangerous, isn't it?)

When no ones watching in a store's aisle, I suddenly have the urge to do a cartwheel, or dropkick somebody awesomely. *sigh*, I always have the wish to be an awesome fighter, but I'm too lazy to actually do anything about it. Or rather, maybe I just don't feel I have the skill. Because I don't. I love those times in movies where there's hand to hand combat, and the main character just ultimately pwns the enemy. It's just so cool! I always scream like a fangirl, or drool with the awesomeness, or both. In the end, I'm just an otaku. It's great, though, being a geek. Only when you have a new things to geek over, though. When I don't have a good new storyline or character to obsess over, I get grumpy. By the way, this is awesome: Tomoyo super combo hit

Jenga

I can't stop listening to this song. Even though its a sad song, it makes me feel as though I can face any challenge no matter how painful. I wonder why...?
I couldn't find the video to put on here, so here's the link: Jenga [Chibita]
Please listen to it.

lyrics

hurting

Just because someone out there is hurting worse than you are, it doesn't mean your pain in insignificant and is not hurting at all.

Letter to the sky

Is a paper airplane a letter to the sky?

Beethoven

We passed by Beethoven in the grocery store today. Sorry man, I just couldn't stop laughing.

Ur-Style

New song! I found it yesterday when I was bored. It's a simple song about dancing, but I like it. I like the feel, especially. Cover by Airi. Let's do things My-style.

Lyrics

original song

Richard Cory

Richard Cory

Whenever Richard Cory went down town,
We people on the pavement looked at him:
He was a gentleman from sole to crown,
Clean favored, and imperially slim.

And he was always quietly arrayed,
And he was always human when he talked;
But still he fluttered pulses when he said,
'Good-morning,' and he glittered when he walked.

And he was rich - yes, richer than a king -
And admirably schooled in every grace:
In fine, we thought that he was everything
To make us wish that we were in his place.

So on we worked, and waited for the light,
And went without the meat, and cursed the bread;
And Richard Cory, one calm summer night,
Went home and put a bullet through his head.

~Edwin Arlington Robinson
found at Poem Hunter

Present Timeline

I can't believe how many childhood memories I had forgotten about. They seem so far away that its hard to believe that I was even there in the first place. It's strange, almost like the deja vu you see sometimes of the future. You can't even believe that you would ever be in a different place than the place you are in now. It's hard to see past the boundaries of a present timeline. Yet, I still feel like I'm time-warping when I remember my past thoughts.

Mr. Fay

There is a fairy in my school. I swear it on my name. He looks like a normal 40 year old man, and he seems like a normal 40 year old man, but his name gives him away. Oh, don't get me wrong, I do not mean he's gay by any means. He has a record player in his room, with old computers and keyboards, and I have absolutely no clue what he teaches. Does he even teach anything? Do fairies teach things? I talked to him for just a second, and he seems pretty chill. But I learned one of the old words for fairy, and am now convinced he is a magical being just for the fun of it. I'm reading about fairies and things lately. It's super fun to learn the history and theories from people behind them. All the old words for fairy are intensely focus-grabbing for me, because they look so cool! I like the old ways of spelling things. Like colour instead of color.

Steel Wings

I heard somewhere that a bird who has had their wings damaged will never fly again. I'm here to nullify that statement. I had my right wing violently torn all the way off. And it's taken years, and they will never grow back, but I have made myself, through trial and error, some steel wings with boosters that will fly me even higher than the ones I was born with! I'm so terribly excited for the test-flight I can't wait!

Namida

I've been having a new burst of confidence and courage lately, and I think that it has a lot to do with this song. When I was super stressed out about school, I just listened to this song. It reminded me that everything I think is a huge problem now is really just as important as nill, and that all I had to do was start working and everything would work out fine. It gave me the courage to stand up again and face everything that was facing me. I knew about this song a long time ago, but I never thought anything of it; I didn't even like it. But now I like it so much I printed out the English translation just so I can have it in my room. 'Namida' means 'Tears'.

Oh, and to anyone who loves anime, I recommend Skip Beat!

Don't Like

I think it's funny how when you ask someone their favorite thing, they don't know how to respond. But if you ask all the things they don't like, they'll shove a whole list of things in your direction. It's almost like, as human beings, we only know who we are by what we don't like. That feels a little wrong to me somehow.

It's annoying

I dislike it when I refuse to do something people want/expect me to do, and they immediately switch it to an issue of liking them or not. I'll just not feel like doing it at the moment, and they'll go off on their accusations of how if I don't do whatever it is, it will mean I don't like them or the thing they put their heart and soul into for me to do. It's annoying, untrue, unfair, and plain stupid. There's not even any argument in it. Where's the logic?

My light just went out

My light just went out...
it made a funny noise while it was flickering uneasily.
I looked up curiously,
and flipped the switch down experimentally.
When I tried to turn it back on,
it wouldn't/ couldn't light my way anymore.

Campanella

I found this song just now! I...
"To see the fish in the Milky way,"

State things as they Are

State things as they are. Be brutally honest. Do it without ceremony or taking care to adorn your words. Do not attempt to half-way nullify your words in the same sentence. State things as they are. If someone is a fool, do not say, "I believe that person is acting foolish, though I'm not exactly sure." Say, "That person is a Fool!" Just think of The Emperor and his new clothes. If the little kid at the end did not say it so obviously ("He's naked!"), then I doubt it would've made any impact. State things as they are.

Fate

"There is happiness for those who accept their fate. There is glory for those who resist their fate."
-Edel

I thought I wanted happiness at first, but now I want glory.

Cleaning

The feeling of a finished cleaning job is a really good one. I'm usually too lazy to clean, so I only do it if I'm either bribed, inspired, or simply can't stand it any longer. It's usually the last reason, since I have a real low tolerance rate (though I try to keep that hidden). I'm really good at cleaning my own room, though. Something about it being my domain.

Catharsis

Define: Catharsis

Noun

1. The process of releasing, and thereby providing relief from, strong or repressed emotions.
2. Purgation 

(google)

I love the soundtrack to Kobato; Kaze no Catharsis
I also like Amber Sky, Boushi no Waltz, and Tooi Hi no Wasuremono, heck, I just love them all!

From Y to Y

I've always loved this song, even before I found Clear's cover of it. The way I interpret the title, is that 'Y' stands for 'yes'(relationship), and that since the person singing does not want the relationship to go from 'y to z' (to end), she/he keeps believing in 'y to y'. I think I might've born that interpretation from a comment somewhere, but I don't really remember. I still listen to this song.

 

Original song

romaji and translation

Underwater Girl

Sleep deprived, yawning, tears of tire-dom. I fell asleep in class with my back to the wall, head up and down. I placed a chain of thoughts and visualization in my dozing dream, and when I opened my eyes I was replaced in another reality. I walked out of there without thinking of other people, and looked at the cloudy overcast over the sky; like a clean gray quilt spread over the expanses, not giving a single hint to blue underneath. It's raining, and just by remembering it, I still feel underwater.

Permeate

Define: Permeate

Verb

Spread throughout (something); pervade. (google)

"So as to permeate, it disappeared into the thin air"
-moonlight restaurant

Forgotten Face

Even though I promised myself a long time ago,
that the most important thing was to remember.
And, that I told her I would never become a hypocrite;
to be happy in these times?
When others are in a pain,
experiencing a pain severe enough to bleed through facial barriers,
how could I become the person I'd resented,
at that time of envy?

Like I've healed?
Like I've been set free?
That's not so bad, is it?

It's almost as though I've forgotten,
no,
I still....

Time has dulled everything,
It has taken away most of the weight.
Still...,
I think if I saw that face one more time,
I might remember.

Every single pain

Sagittarius

So tired, I could almost fall asleep standing up. Like a horse. Centaur? Well, I am a Sagittarius.

River Riddle

A riddle I came up with for English

Who heads home to the ocean,                                                        

a maiden in lace?
Fingers before her,
and the wind on her face?
Who heads home to the ocean,
the map all a muddle
Yet all passed beside her,
Won't have her befuddled?

The scent of March

Have I ever told you how much I like March? I hate February, since its icky with all the mud, and stress that comes with school. But March is beautiful, even if it is stressful. I think it has to do with the smell of the wind. You can almost taste the scent of spring.

Saint Tail

This is a song that I took the pain to actually learn by ear to play on my clarinet. My friend asked today where it came from, so here it is for all to see. Though it's a bit embarrassing. This is the main theme from a show that I really like called Kaitou Saint Tail (Thief Saint Tail)/ or just Saint Tail. I watched the whole series on Veoh (Episode 1). I even own all the manga for it, even though they're out of print already. Sometimes, I scare myself.....ha. I just really love thief shows, like Kamikaze Kaitou Jeanne. Actually, I think I like Kamikaze Kaitou Jeanne even more than this one. But this one is still so much fun to watch and read for some reason. Hmmm. Otaku.

Her Morning Elegance

I was shown this stop motion animation in my 'much hated'(except at the very end) digital media class last semester, and its taken me this long to remember it and put it up here. I remember seeing it, and just falling in love with it, since its so amazing. I really like stop motion animation. The song is unexpectedly sad, though.

Acquainted with the Night

Acquainted with the Night

I have been one acquainted with the night.
I have walked out in rain -- and back in rain.
I have outwalked the furthest city light.

I have looked down the saddest city lane.
I have passed by the watchman on his beat
And dropped my eyes, unwilling to explain.

I have stood still and stopped the sound of feet
When far away an interrupted cry
Came over houses from another street,

But not to call me back or say good-bye;
And further still at an unearthly height,
A luminary clock against the sky

Proclaimed the time was neither wrong nor right.
I have been one acquainted with the night. 

~Robert Frost 

found at Poemhunter